How I Feel

I can't ignore the dark bruises from the bloodwork, I feel them everytime I bend my arms. They are the only things I have left from this baby's first and only doctor appointment. My hip is tender from the rhogam shot. The cramping and bleeding...my deminishing physical remains of this pregnancy. Its hard to deal with. I'm having a hard time accepting that this pregnancy and this baby's life are over. Over before most knew it even existed. But we did. These physical reminders are nothing compared to the way I feel emotionally. I wonder what those wounds would look like if they were visible.