Oh how I miss my little Victor today, and all I hoped for with him. It's been five months since I saw him on ultrasound, then hours later held him in my hands. How quickly life can be changed. This chapter feels so foreign. It's such a trying time, but the new me that understands this pain is better than the old me. The lessons I've learned are valuable, and I cherish the knowledge I've gleened.
I came across this picture. It's just beautiful. Look at their smiles! Who would wish them out of that bright, perfect love and back into this world? I'm trying to move forward, to accept that although not today, one day I will have them both in my arms. Great things are worth waiting for, I know that. Its hard for my heart to stop aching for them. I haven't figured out how, yet. This picture helps.
Tesslee and Victor, Momma loves you with a full heart. I will kiss and squeeze the kids a thousand times... for them, and then for you! I will take in all the life that is around me and treasure it, and in doing this I will honor your brief, significant lives. Thank you for this great gift, Angels.
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